walked home again. DAM lar. i need to control my emotions like better. what the shit?????? totally lost it just now. emoed and was bleeding short tempered like what the crap. still lidat. EVEN AFTER WALKING HOME FROM SCH. even my favourite ice cream tasted like crap. i need to DO IT LIKE now to control,i need to be able to face it without being affected. ive accepted it, but dam it. it just comes out. and fuck it, even my gramamer is like crap now. wtfshit? was able to do it this morning. why not just now???i think i need to slp earlier. my cui-ness was one of the reasons why i was lidat. URGH. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it.

update:
i know i made the correct choice. seeing her smiles when she sees his smses, the look upon her face when i tease her about it. i just need more time. a little more time.
updated our blog, and lol...im actually blasting music from my laptop now. emo music. lol. i know why u like them now. relate to oneself.