(: (: (: (: :D XP =P =D C: :)

i miss you. tehehehehe. =p

:D C: ^_^ (:

haha. (: you should smile(: im smiling from ytd. whereas u had been down, and out pouts* haha. go gaga haha mama baba. hahahahahaha! =p

Smile smile smile C:

Wahahahahhahahaha!!!

dunno why i blew my top and shouted at you virtually. once a friend told me, that when people gets distanced btw them (improper el but u get the idea? hopefully u do), they use shouting to communicate. like now.... i no longer understand you like i used to. everything you do seems.... like very distant alr. like we two had become two strangers alr. lolololol...... i wish there are other topics besides the crappy bgrs that we can talk about. hais. but oh wells. life sucks, and some things would never be the same again. just like my friendship with qy, its different alr. or at least it seems different. i hope it changes soon..... i hope i stay normal. i Have no bleeding idea... HOW THE HECK DID I LOSE CONTROL =.= WHATTHESHIT?!?! i was like dam high? like at the top of the world on sun. =.= kannasai =.= XP sorry about today ehh.

lol. im not myself these two days. dam effed up. with some people outta my life, it would be great. literally. i think some ppl would read this would get the wrong idea etc but well, im hecking. wutever man.

i no longer understand her. thus, im not going to bother, or to dip my hands into it again. no one's asking me to anyway. concern? its gone to the stadge of ridicule. who knows what is correct or wrong? im turning to logic for an answer in that. advice i gave, was grounded in logic. or so i believe. take it if u wan, don't wan also not my prob. cause no longer should i bother or care. why let someone else's problem become your own? that was what happened to be a couple of times in the past. i see no point, If it keeps repeating. water would always flow downstream, evaporate into the skies, comes back as precipitation. no matter what u do, an external force, nothing can change the cycle. so why make that wasted effort? LOL. better not to.

dotty day sia =.=

lol.... seriously its getting quite Dots.... when the person u like does not like u back.... BUT their mums do =.= LOL! oh wells.

ytd had an In-ter-es-ting lesson. lol. is cher told us some really funny stories... had some activities... and well open sharing kinda thing on some issues relating to bgrs. went for dance for fund, practically covered my ears throughout =.= missed the lsct PART WUT THE SHIT =.= went to meet up with her to send her back again.... then went back homed and COM-ed LOL.

today.... we ended lab early, went to studio 27 played far cry. i suck at it seriously. LOL highest number of kills? 6. snipe this snipe tt. all i know how to do. LOL then.. had lessons then.... went to lot 1 with pea. well, i waited alot AS USUAL..... was at clementi mrt reading a book for 15 - 20 mins around there, then stayed in cck mrt for another 15-20 mins. she shopped around for clothes, i was her shadow. LOL was quite quick lei. lol. as usual finished her leftovers.... im becoming a dustbin +.+ DUSTBIN I TELL U! =.= had bobochacha.... not so gd. my maid's one? BETTER! then then..... we had an interesting talk.... not gonna write any of it here... a bit weird sia.. and private lur. hmm.... ive broken alot of my records. go out 8-12 times in the matter of 7 weeks, sent someone home for 5 days straight... etc etc. wut a day! dam tired, had tons of laughs and oh yeah.... i just rmbed something that well.... nevermind.. don't wanna talk about it. its does nothing but miffs me. oh wells. tata for tonight (:

sometimes, its best to end things when u know they can't work out, to really get over it and be done with it then wanting to go back in again and again, akin to playing a game, and pressing the restart button.

im feeling quite dead now.... feeling so sleepy.... i can feel you pain says jia jia..... and i can't wait for this to be over. tata.

compilation of thoughts.

lol. schs been quite dry these few days... been nice meeting the freshies here and there... been nice having the usual crap again like DAM YOU....been nice sending her home... not nice parts are the bastarding by one asshole named JOSHUA BENJAMIN ARAVIN =.= stupid ass.....

n transition into serious phase? LOL

its kinda been a whirl for me these few days, things passing so quickly im losing track of time. im feeling quite weary for some reason but all the same stuffs been working out. but i need to be consitient. Must work hard alr. im getting confused again but i think i would figure them out in time. well, joined a new cca, toastmasters.... but i think im not going for strings after all. i have my flute to master too. well. sianz lar, i lost my wallet. bought a new ezlink card today XP



under the stars, under the clouds.
under the rose petals, under the thorns.
under the fallen leaves, under the pond surface.
under the dark abyss, under the soil itself.
under the sinking ground, under the silvery moonlight.

today left house at 930 went to pick sis up to come to my place. LOL reached 15 mins early so sat downstairs to wait. then she smsed me telling me shes coming down, then i went up to 11 floor came down wanting to scare her... but she clever sia... forecasted it alr.LOL then walking to my place, the usual COMPLAING LONG, COMPLAINGING HOT. lol reached my place, we started off with piano....then com and sing, then chess then webcam then pokey dokey.LOL! poke poke poke poker face! ==.== stupid sia. i was lying on my bed resting, then dear little annoyingly baby sis turn the webcam at me =.= dam ps lar. then i took unglam pics of her as revenge. hehehehe then we bored liao went to city vibe, where i bought a box to put my present in, tako. then we went to big bookstore for i dunno what in the world for. okay then reached west coast plaza bought sushi and ate somewhere in the mall on some benches. seriously i think it was bad idea. >< too much i ate ice cream too HEHE! then i poked her again. lOl funny sia your reactions. LOL then we waited for her mum and sis, then we went to fish and co, urgh fish too oily >< now i feel like puking RIGHT NOW.... we were having a poking session thereafter. LOLOLOL oh wells had tons of fun today. i feel like facepalming at the web cam crap =.= oh wells. nights baltimore! (:

had tons of fun during the camp. LIKED MY GROUP LIKE REALLY ALOT MANZ. though a little quiet, but they were awesome! as usual i hated the cheers, enjoyed the freshie's company. seeing her made me feel the oppositte of wut i expected, whilst the other was totally expected.(: oh wells. can't wait for tmw. gonna spend the entire day at my house playing the piano etc. then Dinner at fish and co! haha! can't wait! bye!


if your bored or tired of this friendship, shouldn't u end it then?? why do u keep thinking from the start its gonna fail etc? why so little trust in yourself and ME? and im getting dam tired and irked by you during the camp. like seriously, wts? u talk to me, then u ignore me, then talk to me than ignore me. so whats the bleeding problem? at least i fufiled a promise i made to my other friends in society. stay for foc. is there even a need for promises? LOL are we like pegs to hold us each other pegged down? like i really wonder what the fuck is going on sometimes, when suddenly u talk to me more than normal, then sometimes when i just wan a simple talk With no relation to any of our problems, go silent. like had we dropped to the state of oil and water? we are able to communicate our problems to one another, but we can't do anything else. this is getting really damming and annoying. if u don't wan to talk, tell me lar. like i can't vanish from your life lidat. Don't just fucking use me as a tool treating me like a fool. im not Your tool. im your friend. Don't push it. even though we are not just simple normal friends but still, watch it. I TOO have my LIMITS.

maybe im just dam tired and in need of rest and am not thinking straight. heck it. time to slp.

just a random spot of philosophical thinking (:

today during lunch, or rather their lunch, i said this. i understand your problem as i can see it. by the problem i meant his girl friend. lol. though thats only a part of the cake. what i really do mean is that your bf or gf is an additional burden, a added bit of baggage, but thats what makes it really worth it. the magic of being able to transverse both good and bad times. time spent with your 'trouble' is more than enough to compensate for that little bit of trouble. lol. trouble? nah. it would be a pleasure. its a pleasure to listen, to help. its that value of companionship that makes it one of a kind. i think. all the above is just philosophical thinking.lol. after all, i have no experience in it. but being one who is really affected by this emotion called loneliness, thats wut i believe. haha (:

dam cui.

i like spending time with someone IS not equals to i like that person. i think i think i think. I think i should think deeper, not more. =.=

hais. woke up at 4 today =.= like omgoodness..... so early couldn't slp well these past two days >< then then went for some church service.... okay lar. their easter sunday's celebrations. prefer my cis's services. i mean its like they are linking the bible to the things they are doing, not the other way around. the food was good though. it was at shangri la. =.= waste of money sia.anyways i had like 4 -5 rounds, ate tons of sushi hehe and ice cream and mussels! >< nice lunch. super bloated. hehe!

a catrostophically planned dayXP

well, to be honest, today, was planned. and somehow it wasn't as well, Quirky as a random day! hehe! cause we did tons of random things (: so city hall ehh? hmm went there, walked in raffles city..... window shopped as usual, talk, this thing that thing.then we went to prints in city link hehe. i like tt shop. my favourite shop (: then then.... went to marina square, walked a little then went to eat dinner. AT 4 plus. >< super early sia ordered fish cutlet, two honey lemon iced tea like always.... and then tofu with century egg And beancurd. TOFU WAS SUPER SALTY, BEANCURD WAS SUPER SWEET and the fish cutlet. hehe. i knew u wouldn't be able to finish. XP as usual too. then we walked somemore, then well, kinda bored of the place le, so we thought of going to somewhere to get some stuffs so went to imm's daiso. reached le, walked about and somebody managed to find something she wanted again. see go out with me twice ehh, and both times got something u wanted. hehe. then i wanted to go clarke quay, then thats where we went. but somehow, i was kinda deprived of logic. it was raining everwhere so everywhere's wet. why am i so SLOW AND STUPID today and ytd? uber blur too then we walked around got sianzed and trained back to clementi. PS ehhs! then the usual bus to and back to west coast and to home. was STUCK OUTSIDE IN THE TRAIN AGAIN =.= oh wells. (: thus ends one PLANNED day. hehe

tonight, i celebrate my love for you. EHH anyone got this song sia? i want it! hehe. i like the melody (:(: