its always in this cycle.....No. cycles would be more appropriate. as often i find and discover a place within me that is filled with pent up frustrations, anger, Pain.

then

it becomes another cycle, another cycle to numb it, to escape it. losing myself in both books and games, where my mind would have no place to wander, no strength to think of other stuff. fixing wholly on just that one thing.

and im starting to hate music. not the enjoyment of music.. but the lack of ability to enjoy it. or maybe its just more inner demons at work here. oh wells