just the moon shining all alone.

just like the one only visible star in the night sky,
just the moon shining all alone.
clusters of trees all around me,
a crowd of streetlamps beside me.





maybe i should just shut up. just be what i used to be. quiet and alone. or i should really speak like alot less. i always feel like a leech, clingy and clinging to anyone here and there. move in and out of one group of friends, like i don't belong there at all. yeah, i have friends in society. clique? nah. im one of the solos, who go in and out here and there. its not exactly like my class, alot of cliques but still can come together as one big clique. like even that is becoming none. like man??? im just the extra out there.

if only i can deprogramme myself. and reprogramme myself. everyone has flaws, and im probably the worst screw up in the century. or should i say, the worst screw up since genisis. God created everything perfect. yeah he did, my zygote was perfect. what i grew up into, is nothing but one messed up person.


when people swear and curse, don't they feel like they are degrading themselves? so uncultured and uncivilised. doesn't anyone feel that way? well.... i do. its one stupid thing ive wanted to change since last year, reduced alot alr. thats gd.

i prefer screwing up one event that seeing a friend injuring herself. in all things safety comes first. not the performance, not the hopes of the people around u, but the safety and health of everyone present. thats whats most important. its never the result that matters, but the journey. though thats a different scenario altogether outside in the working world, but for now, its the journey that matters. the end is just a bonus.