random thought.

omgeez. im getting influenced by qy? not a good thing XP

well, had a talk with her just now. dunno how it started. random too! HAHA! okay.... my sis just walked into my room, and said rawr with her hair covering her face. LOLS oh wells back to topic.

so we somehow for some reason were talking about bgrs. okay. kinda expected? oh wells so right. i said, i realised something, that bgrs cannot be solely dependent on feelings. cause well, obviously feelings change over time. but the other aspect, infact an important component is the bond, the empathy, the care and concern, the patience, the trust and above all, the independency.
obviously that partner does not make up a component of you. cause ur u, she she. but rather, that partner complements you. not like without that person, 'OH i cannot continue on' or 'shes essential in my life! without her i cannot live'. okay thats just plain stupid and immature. if cannot make it, come on, look at it from another angle. if cannot be a couple, why not close friends? haha. feelings can come and go, unexpectedly or expectedly, from viewing my friends and on a personal level. but there after, it depends on the two to maintain it. LOL! i sound like a love adviser=.= but lol. im discovering something new in a totally new enviroment. blogging these few days had helped me straighten my thinking. not like i have the FEEL then just rant and rant. but rather it helped me collect my thoughts. lol. emo attacks? once in a while. CONSTANTLY EMO? pouts* and Go and die! XP kai en the EMOER IS GONE! always always always. XP no longer coming back. (: haha!


is not that ive learnt how to kan kai. more like ive learnt the first step to acceptance (: haha! guess im always gonna be older than you in thinking? haha!