infatuation or something more?

i guess this is the first time i fell for someone without realising it. one can say the barriers between the two of us are being broken down further daily and they are becoming more and more rare. a bond has already developed between us. but it is due to this that im feeling fear. i feel like im at the edge of a prepeice, one wrong step and i would fall into the valley beyond. this bond is something precious to me, as it had been one in a million thus far. im longing to take the next step, but there is just that one big thing that is holding me back. once again im attempting to journey into new teritories. i just want to take the next step, but there are just two things holding me back. just that two things. i should do something about it. yes i should. but after cell bio eoys. then 7 weeks hols then do something about it.


the joy out of all these is that i enjoy her company greatly. she makes me smile and feel great all day. never realised that till yesterday. never realised that it was one of the things that had been keeping me filled for the past months.this dear friendship is like one i had never experienced. literally and sincerely.