im about to slp. but i suddenly had this thought in mind. well, i had alot of crushes. and some that became something more. and whenever it happened, and im close to that person... its always this thought thats in my mind. to be honest, this is the main thought in my mind. i well, do not place the accept or reject thing higher, than whether would the subsequent outcomes would be. whether would the friendship degenerate, whether would there be an awkwardness thereafter.... things lidat.
thats kinda the thing i emo about. USED TO. haha. its just a crucial switch, That switch in your mindset. looking at it as... oh she rejected me... im useless, its the end of the world, how many times must it happen before i meet 'Her'? , Gosh... i feel inferior. why did she choose him over me?
WE can think that.... or...
oh wells, look at the positive side! at least we are still friends, there are more things we can freely bluntly talk about, at least i gained a friend at the very least, that says something about who i am isn't it? just a crucial switch.... and things change. =p
haha im glad i met you. im so much more happier than i was last time. influence.... the crazy type. Hais. XP yeah true... there are times i still feel alone, down etc. like ytd i was feeling really alone thanks to that stupid movie we watched.... but then, well, that was only for a little while XP
looking at what i just wrote, i think i drew out this fact. i think im good at connecting with people, understanding how they feel by relating it to me... i think im quite empathatic. haha. i hope thats true. (:
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