tis gonna be a quick one.

omgosh seriously, i don't need that friend to appear in my dreams also. tt was creepy.

and sianzed probably failed my mmb already. AND ITS A RETEST. zomgosh. also had ccta ct 2. hmm next week quite hectic also, mon need to present on mango, and have prac test for imm, then on fri need to hand in ccta report, fri mmb ct 2, must chiong for this one. and the week after next the tues need to hand in the reports for mmb lab pracs. chiong and shiong arh ><

day 3 parents

hmmm. dad and mum. well, its simple. i love both of them very much. i admire my dad for being a family man, would is always very concerned about the family, hardworking, he literally gives in his all. my mum is very generous and sensitive. both have flaws and i think i get along better with dad than with you mum. though i really loathe it when the two of you nag, i believe thats the nature of the parent child relationship of this era. i can't stand it when anyone jumps to conclusions and just push the blame to me also. but literally without you life would be so much different. im so similar to my dad in some ways, and in others similar to my mum. haha i think i picked all their flaws and non of their good points >< all the same, thank you for so so so much dad and mum (:

day 2 crush

lol. moi's crush? thankfully i don't have one anymore. well, i told myself this that hmm. im defintely not ready for a bgr. so Nah. im going to avoid all of that currently. yeah... thinking that my maturity is seemingly in question here, as well as my personality and behavioural patterns are quite screwed up on occasion, so yeah, Not ready. so Nah. anyway im still so young! EIGHTEEN ONLY >< hahahahaha

day 1, best friend. LOL!

well, its been a whale of a time from the time when we first talked to each other. we had this uncanny ability to be able to tell what the other is going to say next, though most of the time they were just the usual ' what!, but.... etc etc' hahahaha! we known each other for barely 2 years, yet we are already so close (: a result of our erm late night hths i guess ahahahaha! i put you at ease, you make me feel.. i dunno. like u make me feel.. normal, no need to worry overmuch, can just be Who i am, with the blur and retarded facades thrown aside. well, past months.. i guess u can tell that im a bottle, ppl tell me stuff, put into the bottle. my own stuff, put into bottle. then when it is full, crack, shatter, burn out. =P our blog seems dead ehh. hahahaha well, thanks for everything sm (: And i really loved the times when u actually Appeared online. =.= ahahahahaha! well, i loved our dates, our time spent walking together and just talking, lets do that sometime soon again okay? ((:

30 days of challenge.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

i like kids because i long to be a kid once more cause i yearn for that simplicity.

ZZZZ i woke up late today! lol im bored AND NO NO NO DON'T THINK SO MUCHz!

my birthday!

Today was a blast. The 2nd best birthday ever. First was pri 6 (: haha so today… got 3 unexpected things that happened. First well, I got a…. a…. ohoh I remember! Like 11 of my friends sang happy birthday to me in like in the middle of mega bites?!? I was like stunned and I well, didn’t know how to react. Just like sec 4 manz! I was like… erm… erm… what should I be doing? Haha it was nice and thoughtful though. Next well, I got a bottle of wine, the small one, and a I dunno whats tt called that shirt from ken and the rest. Malick’s class was quite boring I was near slping but couldn’t really slp properly…. Went to the front for power, but when I wanted to go to the back to slp, or whatever, my way was blocked. Then then I met kylie at novena after like snacking like crazy at ion. Omgosh I feel soooo guilty. Yeah right. LOL. She gave me my birthday present which was like erm.. udders ice cream? We walked about and chatted non stop. Haha and and we were looking at flowers that she wanted to get for two of her friends the very next day. Interestingly enough, I got to know that she, tessa and jovi were in the same school but in different classes. Before I thought they were in the same class OR in different schools. Lol. When there wasn’t any flowers to be found at novena, or were too Ex, we trained down to Pasir ris. There she bought 2 bouquets or bunches of sweet Williams. Quite nice. Didn’t have time to visit my grandmother though. I had to rush back home to finish the stupid is video and ppt slides. Like URGH. Lol.

lol! Jie’s expression today was downright funny. Made me laugh like nuts. Haha! She looked good in that.. ermm….. dunno whats its called but some Indian traditional clothing. Erm I wonder… oh wells nevermind I forgot whats its called. AHHH! sari. Haha in short a nice and good day.

im very short tempered recently. yess! says van. i slept at 1030 ytd but im still tired. ytd my day went from good to bad. and now, since its 21 july already, ytd my day went from bad to good in the last couple of minutes. okay tired, now time to slp. nighttos!

i wonder who still reads my blog. haha BUT i loved today. first and foremost, saw ben and lester Again after sooooo long. and also Hui ling and Shi ying after SOOOO LONG TOO! and also soon and anna after seeing them in the morning TOO! haha! anyway its nice! like really nice! haha we went for a walk after dinner, food was alright i suppose. then then we just camped in my room where i was FORCED to talk about THAT once more. Hais. NO ONES GONNA LET ME FORGET IT >< oh wells. haha then they left in pairs, but i really enjoyed that short time together with them again. haha. zzzz now im killing ants in my room. i wish u all didn't get me gifts but i really enjoy them. haha and yeah hui ling, the bottle is still in my room, unused (: the pencil case too. haha i would rather keep it inside and well, couple more years down the road, open my drawer and think back to the good times that we shared (: also i got a bottle of made in candy sweets from my cousin, a red packets from my cousin, my uncle and my grandmother and a crumpler from my aunt. THANKS A MILLION EVEN THOUGH U ALL WON"T SEE THIS >< thanks for today guys! and P.s. maybe we all should get together another time. hehe u all would be fast friends i think hahahahaha!

Kns KNs KNS! im getting bogged down and dragged into my friend's problems and woes. why? cause i comphrehend and bleeding feel what they feel too. dam and curse the thing called empathy. im feeling so tired, so worn out. one burnout after another. vicious cycle as usual oh drats.

today i was super drowsy during meeting. as i am now. i slept for like 30 plus mins on the mrt from kembangan back to clementi. lol it was such an enjoyable 25 mins training with kylie from novena to eunos. we were constantly talking about goodness knows what. Lol! such a nice 25 mins. lol. then this morning. =.= EPIC FAIL. my dad didn't know we do not have piano.... THEN HE WOKE ME UP AT 8 30 AM TO BRING US OUT TO EAT. =.= then we went bukit timah nature reserve to hike... more like just sit and walk and stone for 45 mins for my dad to walk to the summit and back to the ranger station. LOL! oh well, my sis relived her childhood by playing the swing. LOL! it reminds me of the good old days where we used to play there like erm... 6-9 years ago? LOL!

lol. this was probably the most enjoyable thing from yesterday, writing out this assigment. lol. but i found the format required was utter CRAP so i just hecked it. lol. now im awaiting the time whereby i can see ken tower over susan. anticipating it even. it would be quite and be relatively enjoyable. lol

Assignment 1

Social influence narration:

1. Social influence. It is the result of many factors, Envy, greed and a lack of acceptance of what the person currently has are some of those

reasons.

2. In our teenage life in poly, we get to meet people from different backgrounds, and with different lifestyles.

3. We get to meet people who are more well off than us, living in landed properties, which makes up the minority in housing in Urban Singapore. Seeing that one of my friends from our circle of friends living in a huge bungalow, it is a lie to say that we do not envy him.

4. Another example would be following the trends. We as teens would wan to be seen as in and cool, as ‘normal’ as the rest of the populace, so that we are not seen as the opposite, as weird or unglamorous.

5. One down to earth example, especially in poly, is BGRs. More I had met friends who want and long to get into a relationship, due to simply peer pressure, looking at their immediate circle of friends around them, envying those friends who are in a relationship and therefore want to be in one.

Social influence reflection:

1. Social influence in a result of the things we see around us, the influence that makes us want to be seen in a certain light, due to the result of greed and envy.

2. As the amount of people we meet, each with their very own background, ranging from the wealthy to the poor, that is one of the most common influences in society, the wealth factor.

3. As we view other people from the different social standings, we want to be seen as to be on the same level as the other person. Therefore we would want to have the same material stuff as the other person, so that one as a person can say that we are equal and not different.

4. Trends are the most easily described social influence. Because that’s what it simply is. Influences. We see Jonas brothers wearing tight fitting jeans, and that sparked the rage of tights in Singapore. We see the K pop boy bands having long hair, and that’s what many teens do too. Follow to be seen as in and not out.

5. In conclusion, social influences are basically, what we see our friends have, we want to follow. What we see as cool and in, we want to follow. It is just something that had blossomed out of envy and the need to be seen as In or cool or just simply normal. This affects society in more ways than one, mainly increasing the competiveness of people in their race to get more, and it would and may lead to people belittling others.

Construal narration:

1. Construal are basically the way we view things. I believe that playing the piano is a pain and that the daily practice that is required to master a song simply wears me out. Whereas others find it a joy to play the piano and find enjoyment in their music.

2. Another example would be one of myself again, hating soccer. I do not like soccer as I believe it to be a violent sport, though not as violent as rugby and wrestling, but people tend to lose their inhibitions and their senses when it comes to football, even rioting and fighting when the losing team’s supporters attack the winning team’s supporters.

3. I believe that relationships and friendships to be more important than anything else. They are the components which make my life meaningful and fulfilling, not the material needs like large houses etc.

Construal reflection:

1. In some sense, my parents had always belittled my achievements and always expect more than what I believe I can give. Therefore similarly in the aspect of playing the piano, I expect them to say the same and therefore do not give my all. In some sense they had ingrained in me unintentionally, a aspect where I think and believe this.

Me + piano= fail. So naturally it is harder for me to really sit down and have the patience to play the piano and I would give up much easier. This is the result of my experiences and the knowledge of how my parents would react to different situations, though flawed it might be.

2. Now football on the other hand. I believe the reason why I could not find the same passion for foot ball was a result of upbringing. As such my mindset is affected by it. As I grew up in a family where we spent very little contact with football as my father rarely watches football matches, I can never find the same passion and can not see the beauty of the sport. I believe it to be violent, due to the images portrayed by the media after the previous world cup riots, and I was left with a wronged and one sided impression.

3. I believe the reason why I see relationships, kinship and friendships in such a way is because from young I had a close knit family, with very little wants and my parents can and did satisfy my needs. Therefore I had a very comfortable life so far so I put a lesser importance in material needs. Another reason was because I had lost people who I loved, my grandfather. Therefore it had partially scarred me and I fear these losses. As the saying goes once bitten twice shy. Thus now I have a different perspective to this matter than I once had.

4. In conclusion, construal can affect the society when people having a different mindset as to what is to be done work together, conflicts can arise. On a larger scale, the Americans fear the terrorists due to their past experience with the 9/11 incident. Whereas the terrorist believe that the Americans are infidels and therefore unholy and are just simply corrupting their culture and beliefs.

Schemas narration:

1. In polytechnic, besides studies, the most common topic between friends is always boy girl relationships. And it is there where a extremely common schema can be found. Like currently in my immediate circle of friends, there is this guy and this girl. They had gotten very close, but are not involved in a relationship. And they are rather intimate, holding hands, leaning one’s head on the other’s shoulder etc.

2. A common stereotype in my class is related to the Korean trend, the guys calling any other guy who has long hair or dyed hair gay and faggots and the like. They believe the person to be as such, relating their physical appearance to what and how they are like.

Schemas reflection.

1. Commonly people relate these actions to a couple’s. therefore currently the most number of questions that they receive are, are the two of you together? People in the Asian world do not have the same easy attitude towards closeness to close friends of the opposite gender. So they believe when they see someone holding hands, they immediately believe they are together as the perspective is ingrained in the society, and influenced by the customs of the races in that place.

2. Once again, as a person’s expected image of someone is ingrained in him, he has developed a schema. Believing that once a person has and shows certain personalities and traits of the classifications and terminologies that people give like nerds, gays, lesbians etc, they naturally believe and think as such. My classmates are likewise. Though some of them are influenced by their upbringing, their culture.

3. In conclusion, schemas are affected by society’s viewpoints in general.

its always in this cycle.....No. cycles would be more appropriate. as often i find and discover a place within me that is filled with pent up frustrations, anger, Pain.

then

it becomes another cycle, another cycle to numb it, to escape it. losing myself in both books and games, where my mind would have no place to wander, no strength to think of other stuff. fixing wholly on just that one thing.

and im starting to hate music. not the enjoyment of music.. but the lack of ability to enjoy it. or maybe its just more inner demons at work here. oh wells

they would be the perfect pair, the differences balanced out and the acceptance levels at their highest.