Thinking

More often than naught,
people think.
But even more often that that,
people brood.


Brood till,
the loot of a hoot,
had a moot in the room,
with the pool in the woods,
like a boot with a hood,
like a root with a Woot!


Thinking about the things,
about their hurts
about their work
about their sufferings
about their failings
about their pains.
and they think,
about could have beens,
about had beens,
about would be,
about jelly beans,
about long beans,
about Stinky Beans!

In short,

excessive thinking hath rendered,
a logical sound mind,
with brilliancy devine,
into a jamble of brambles.


In even SHORTER TERMS,


Crazy.


So lets just learn,
to attain just that calm.
Just that peace.

Through
Your dear,
My dear,
Our Dear,

Father above.

Just learn to let go,
with a brighter outlook,
as tonight is a good night,
with tomorrow being a better night.

So heres,




GOOD NIGHT! (:

Hmm i noticed this one trait about me. i always utilise the same method of escaping, playing games like crazy or reading to get away. far far away.

i wonder what the heck was wrong with me yesterday.

He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
he sendeth more strength when the labors increase,
To added affliction He addeth His mercy,
to multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
when our strength has failed ere the day is half-done,
when we reach the end of our hoarded resources,
our Father's full giving is only begun.

His love has no limit, his grace has no measure,
his Power no boundary known unto men,
for our of his infitite riches in Jesus,
He giveth and giveth and giveth again.



well, im scared. kinda stupid, but twice bitten ten times the shyness. im really scared that im gonna get into that again. it was like dropping an anchor just now, but Why DID i feel that way??? omgoodness. im going nuts. think too much already. and who called other ppl paranoid? im Paranoid. hehehe NOID NOID ><

tis gonna be a quick one.

omgosh seriously, i don't need that friend to appear in my dreams also. tt was creepy.

and sianzed probably failed my mmb already. AND ITS A RETEST. zomgosh. also had ccta ct 2. hmm next week quite hectic also, mon need to present on mango, and have prac test for imm, then on fri need to hand in ccta report, fri mmb ct 2, must chiong for this one. and the week after next the tues need to hand in the reports for mmb lab pracs. chiong and shiong arh ><

day 3 parents

hmmm. dad and mum. well, its simple. i love both of them very much. i admire my dad for being a family man, would is always very concerned about the family, hardworking, he literally gives in his all. my mum is very generous and sensitive. both have flaws and i think i get along better with dad than with you mum. though i really loathe it when the two of you nag, i believe thats the nature of the parent child relationship of this era. i can't stand it when anyone jumps to conclusions and just push the blame to me also. but literally without you life would be so much different. im so similar to my dad in some ways, and in others similar to my mum. haha i think i picked all their flaws and non of their good points >< all the same, thank you for so so so much dad and mum (:

day 2 crush

lol. moi's crush? thankfully i don't have one anymore. well, i told myself this that hmm. im defintely not ready for a bgr. so Nah. im going to avoid all of that currently. yeah... thinking that my maturity is seemingly in question here, as well as my personality and behavioural patterns are quite screwed up on occasion, so yeah, Not ready. so Nah. anyway im still so young! EIGHTEEN ONLY >< hahahahaha